  Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie | Do you go to the dungeon to make peace with your days in the dungeon writing a
letter to you didn't make me feel any more peaceful than how I felt when we
weren't speaking because I didn't cope with what I did. I can't love you because
we're supposed to have professional boundaries. I'd like you to be schooled and
in awe as you were kissed by god full on the lips. I'm in the front row the front row
with popcorn I get to see you close up (I'm too tired to recount the unpleasantries
one by one one minutes I want to banish you the next I want to be on your
deserted island with you along with my three favorite cd's ambivalent yet in your
bed we've yet to acknowledge what really happened) slid into the ditch I have this
overwhelming loss of ambition we said let's name thirty good reasons why we
shouldn't be together I started saying things like "you smoke" "you live in new
jersey (too far)" you started saying things like "you belong to the world" all of
which could have been easily refuted but the conversation was hypothetical I am
totally short of breath for you why can't you shut your stuff off... i'm in the front
row the front row with popcorn I get to see you close up (and I laughed until my
lungs hurt I love how you bust my chops you don't always feel seen sometimes you
feel erasable unfortunately I cannot reciprocate in my current state I think we
should be careful of how much time we spend together) ...for a while while I'm
speaking you know how much you hate to be interrupted maybe spend some time
alone fill up your proverbial cup so that it doesn't always have to be about you
I've been wanting your individual attention I like the fact that you're nothing like
me are you not burdened by the lack of perspective people have your charmed life
(seemingly)? i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn I get to see you close
up (you never meant to be ungrateful nor held up to be whipped or wept for
certainly not analyzed prodded at more ways than one apparently you've been
misrepresented dealing with the concept of arrows being slung towards your
outrageous fortune) hey I'm not mad at your guardian I'm mad at myself for
spending so much time with you and your jeckyl and hydeness I'm glad I
figuratively slapped you on the wrist you laughed a wicked laugh and said "come
here let me clip your wings" (i know he's blood but you still can't turn him away
you don't owe him anything) "raise the roof" he yelled "yeah raise the roof" I
yelled back. (unfortunately we need a health scare to reprioritize) no thanks to the
soap box. having me rile against them won't make as ounce of difference... I'm in
the front row the front row with popcorn I get to see you close up (oh the things
I've done for you many a sitch a friend a man's been left for you oh the books I've
read for you the tongues I've bitten for you many a new city for you many a risk
taken for you) (not a single regret) к списку » | Первый ряд |
I've seen them kneel
with baited breath for the ritual
I've watched this experience raise
them to pseudo higher levels
I've watched them leave their families
in pursuit of your nirvana
I've seen them coming to line up
from Switzerland and America.
How long will this take Baba
How long have we been sleeping
Do you see me hanging on to
every word you say
How soon will I be holy
How much will this cost guru
How much longer 'til you
completely absolve me.
I've seen them give their drugs up
in place of makeshift altars
I've heard them chanting
kali kali frantically
I've heard them rotely repeat your
teachings with elitism
I've seen them boasting robes and
foreign sandalwood beads
I've seen them overlooking God in
their won essence
I've seen their upward glances
in hopes of instant salvation
I've seen their righteousness
mixed with loving compassion
I've watched you smile as
the students bow to kiss your feet.
Give me strength all knowing one
How long 'til enlightenment
How much longer 'til you
completely absolve me.
к списку » | "Святой" * |
How 'bout getting off these antibiotics,
How 'bout stopping eating when I'm filled up
How 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
How 'bout that ever elusive kudo
Thank u India,
thank u terror,
thank u disillusionment
thank u frailty,
thank u consequence,
thank u, thank u silence
How 'bout me not blaming you for everything
How 'bout me enjoying the moment for once
How 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
How 'bout grieving it all one at a time
Thank u India,
thank u terror,
thank u disillusionment
thank u frailty,
thank u consequence,
thank u, thank u silence
The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down
How 'bout no longer being masochistic
How 'bout remembering your divinity
How 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How 'bout not equating death with stopping
Thank u india,
thank u providence,
thank u disillusionment
thank u nothingness,
thank u clarity,
thank u, thank u silence
к списку » | Спасибо |
Are you still mad I kicked you out of the bed?
Are you still mad I gave you ultimatums?
Are you still mad I compared you to all
my forty year old male friends?
Are you still mad I shared our problems
with everybody?
Are you still mad I had an emotional affair?
Are you still mad I tried to mold you into
who I wanted you to be?
Are you still mad I didn't trust your intentions?
Of course you are
Of course you are
Are you still mad I flirted wildly?
Are you still mad I had a tendency to mother you?
Are you still mad that I had one foot out the door?
Are you still mad that we slept together even after
we had ended it?
Of course you are
Of course you are
Are you still mad I wore the pants most of the time?
Are you still mad that I seemed to focus
only on your potential?
Are you still mad that I threw in the towel?
Are you still mad that I gave up long before you did?
Of course you are
Of course you are
к списку » | Ты все еще сердишся? | I was afraid you'd hit me if I'd spoken up
I was afraid of your physical strength
I was afraid of you'd hit me below the belt
I was afraid of your sucker punch
I was afraid of your reducing me
I was afraid of your alcohol breath
I was afraid of your complete disregard for me
I was afraid of your temper
I was afraid of handles being flown off of
I was afraid of holes being punched into walls
I was afraid of your testosterone
I have as much rage as you have
I have as much pain as you do
I've lived as much hell as you have
and I've kept mine bubbling under for you
You were my best friend
You were my lover
You were my mentor
You were brother
You were my partner
You were my teacher
You were my very own sympathetic character
I was afraid of verbal daggers
I was afraid of the calm before the storm
I was afraid for my own bones
I was afraid of your seduction
I was afraid of your coersion
I was afraid of your rejection
I was afraid of your intimidation
I was afraid of your punishment
I was afraid of your icy silences
I was afraid of your volume
I was afraid of your manipulation
I was afraid of your explosions
I have as much rage as you have
I have as much pain as you do
I've lived as much hell as you have
and I've kept mine bubbling under for you
chorus * chorus
You were my keeper
You were my anchor
You were my family
You were my saviour
and therein lay the issue
and therein lay the problem к списку » | Родственный характер
Я боялась, что ты ударишь меня, если я заговорю
Я боялась твоей физической силы
Я боялась, что ты нанесешь удар ниже пояса
Я боялась, что ты нападешь сзади
Я боялась, что ты подчинишь меня своей воле
Я боялась твоего запаха алкоголя из твоего рта
Я боялась, твоего полного игнорирования меня
Я боялась твоих неуравновешенных всплесков
Я боялась твоей несдержанности
Я боялась, что ты кулаком наделаешь дырок в стенах
Я боялась твоего тестостерона (мужской половой гормон)
У меня есть столько же ярости, сколько и у тебя
У меня столько же боли, сколько и у тебя
Я пережила столько же ада, сколько и ты
И я держала все внутри ради тебя
Ты был моим лучшим другом
Ты был моим любовником
Ты был моим наставником
Ты был моим братом
Ты был моим партнером
Ты был моим учителем
Ты был отражением моего собственного характера
Я боялась слов, острых как лезвие
Я боялась затишья перед бурей
Я боялась до самых костей
Я боялась, что ты соблазнишь меня
Я боялась принуждения силой и угрозами
Я боялась твоего неприятия меня
Я боялась твоих угроз
Я боялась твоих наказаний
Я боялась твоего ледяного молчания
Я боялась твоей громогласности
Я боялась твоего манипулирования
Я боялась твоих внезапных взрывов
*припев*
Ты был моим сторожем
Ты был моим якорем
Ты был моей семьей
Ты был моим спасителем
Вот в чем было дело
Вот в чем состояла проблема. |
That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing
That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy
That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good whether with or without you
к списку » | Со мной все будет хорошо? |
You hadn't seen your father in such a long time
he died in the arms of his lover how dare he
your mother never left the house
she never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her
You reminded her so much of your father
so you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive
and why you can't trust anyone but us
but then how can I begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty
water
she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me
I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years
I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
who are you younger generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems
not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour
How can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn
I feel fine we may have been born as awake as you were
it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways
we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch
he was sitting down across from me he was writing his hypothesis I don't know
I've got a loving supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get
you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit?
Just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs
in my mind's eye
I remember how they would creak loudly
she was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo
I was only trying to be the best big brother I could
I've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
sometimes indignant sometimes raw
can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes
it feels like highway robbery
and sometimes it feels like peanuts
I wish it could last a couple more hours
So here we are both battling similar demons (not coincidentally)
you see in getting beyond knowing it soley intellectual you're not relinquishing
your majesty
you are wise you are courageous you are big
and I love you now more than I ever have in my whole life
к списку » | Диван * |
I'd be lying if I said I was completely unscathed
I might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliation
would I be letting you win in my non reaction?
how would I explain?
how would I explain this to my children if I had them?
because I can't not
because I can't not
because I can't afford to be misread one more time
would I be whining if I said I needed a hug?
would you feel slighted if I said your love's not enough?
how can I complain?
how can I complain when i'm the one who reaches for it?
because I can't not
because I can't not
because I cannot walk without my crutches
because I can't not
because I can't not
because I can't help wonder why you ask me
to all the unheard wisdom in the schoolyard
you think you're the right ones
you think you're the charmed ones i'm sure
how can you go on with such conviction?
and who do you think you are why do you question me?
because we can't not
because we can't not
because we can't help laugh at underestimations
because we can't not
because we can't not
because we can't afford to be misled one more time
because we can't not
because we can't not
because we cannot help without your willingness
why do you affect me? why do you affect me still?
why do you hinder me? why do you hinder me still?
why do you unnerve? why do you unnerve me still?
why do you trigger me? why do you trigger me still?
к списку » | Не могу не |
Burn the books they've got too many names and psychoses
all this incriminating evidence would surely haunt me
if someone broke into my house
suits in the living room
do you realize guys I was born in 1974
we've got someone here to explain your publishing
we know how much you love to be in front of audiences
hopeful you are
schoolbound you are
naive you are
driven you are
take a trip to new york with your guardian
and your fake identification
when they said "is there something anything
you'd like to know young lady?"
you said "yes I'd like to know what kind of people
i'll be dealing with"
precocious you are
headstrong you are
terrified you are
ahead of your time you are
don't mind our staring but
we're surprised you're not in a far-gone asylum
we're surprised you didn't crack up
lord knows that we would've
we would've liked to have been there
but you keep pushing us away
resilient you are
big time you are
ruthless you are
precious you are
к списку » | Ты |
As we were taking outside it was cold we were shivering yet warmed by the
subject matter
my wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you know please don't tell
her or anyone
but I need to talk to somebody
you said "wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was five minutes before I
died i'd be filled
with such regret before I took my last breath" and I said "you're willing to tell me
this now
and you're not going to die any time soon"
and I said I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything and you said yes
but you've been wearing leather and laughed and said we're at the top of the
food chain
and yes you're a fine woman and I cringed
I was hoping I was hoping we could heal each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could be raw together
we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's) said "good-bye sir thank
you for your business sir you're
successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which you dine here
sir
and your money" and when I walked by they said "thank you too dear" I was all
pigtails and cords
and there was a day when I would've said something like "hey dude I could buy
and sell this place so kiss it"
I too once thought I was owed something
I was hoping I was hoping we could challenge each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could crack each other up
I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow
I too once thought life was cruel
it's a cycle really you think i'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you I think you're
insensitive
and I don't feel heard and I said do you believe we are fundamentally
judgmental? fundamentally evil?
and you said yes I said I don't believe in revenge in right or wrong good or bad
you said
"well what about that man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency room bleeding
after beating his kid
and she threw a shoe at his head.
I think what he did was wrong and I would've had a hard time feeling compassion
for him"
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged.
I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together
I was hoping I was hoping we could be creamy together
к списку » | Я надеяласьБыло холодно, когда мы вышли на улицу
Дрожь прокатывала по телу, но мы все еще были разгорячены темой разговора
Моя жена в соседней комнате... Ты знаешь, у нас были проблемы... Пожалуйста, не рассказывай ей, да и вообще никому... Но я должен с кем-нибудь поговорить.
Ты говоришь: "Это ведь наверное будет такой позор - если за пять минут перед смертью я буду думать о том, какая я важная персона... перед тем, как я сделаю последний вдох, я буду поглощен подобными сожалениями?..." и я ответила: "Ты можешь поговорить со мной об этом и, я думаю, ты не собираешься умирать в ближайшее время".
И я говорила, что не ем ни цыплят, ни мяса, ни вообще чего-то такого. Ты говорил, что "это так, но ты носишь кожаные вещи и со смехом рассказывала, что мы находимся на вершине пищевой цепи, и, разумеется, это не мешает тебе быть правильной женщиной", и я осеклась... Я надеялась... Я надеялась, что мы сможем исцелить друг друга
Я надеялась... Я надеялась, мы сможем раскрыться друг перед другом Мы вышли из ресторана и метрдотель (в свои 60 лет) сказал: "До свидания, сэр, благодарим вас за ваш бизнес, сэр, вы успешный и обеспеченный человек, сэр, нам нравится, что вы регулярно обедаете у нас, сэр, и ваши деньги...", и когда я прошла, они сказали: "Спасибо и тебе, дорогая", я была вся в косичках и дредах и однажды наступил день, когда я сказала: "Эй, папаша, я могла бы купить и продать это заведение, так что поцелуй мне ручку!"
Было время, я тоже думала, что обладаю чем-то Я надеялась, я надеялась, мы будем вызовом друг для друга
Я надеялась, я надеялась, мы "расколем" друг друга Я тоже думала, что то, что впоследствии оказалось неправдой, я каким-то образом потеряла (здесь смысл не ясен)
Я тоже когда-то думала, что жизнь жестока
На самом деле, это цикл. Ты думаешь, я абстрагируюсь и вгоняю тебя в чувство вины? Я думаю, что ты нечувствительный и я не чувствую себя услышанной. Я спросила, полагаешь ли ты, что мы в принципе должны подвергаться осуждению? Можем ли мы быть злыми в своей основе?
И ты сказал, что да, я ответила, что не верю в месть - правильную и неправильную, плохую и хорошую. Ты сказал: "Хорошо, а как насчет того мужчины, которого я видел в наручниках в комнате скорой помощи, истекающего кровью, от того, что она запустила ему в голову ботинком после того, как он избил ребенка?
Я думаю, что то, что он делал, было неправильным и вряд ли я проведу мучительные часы, чувствуя сострадание к нему".
Мне приходилось следить за своей манерой выражаться, из за боязни, что меня будут критиковать. Я надеялась, надеялась мы сможем танцевать вместе
Я надеялась, надеялась, что мы будем мягкими друг с другом... |
I am the biggest hypocrite
I've been undeniably jealous
I have been loud and pretentious
I have been utterly threatened
I've gotten candy for my self-interest
the sexy treadmill capitalist
heaven forbid I be criticized
heaven forbid I be ignored
I have abused my power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
I've been out of reach and separatist
heaven forbid average (whatever average means)
I have compensated for my days
of powerlessness
I have abused my so-called power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
did you just call her amazing?
surely we both can't be amazing!
and give up my hard earned status
as fabulous freak of nature?
I have abused my power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
always looked good on paper
sounded good in theory
к списку » | Одно | If I make a lot of tinsel then people will want to
If I am hardened no fear of further abandonment
If I am famous then maybe i'll feel good in this skin
If I am cultured my words will somehow garner respect
I would throw a party still it would not come
I would bike run swim and still it would not come
I'd go travelling and still it would not come
I would starve myself and still it would not come
If I'm masculine I will be taken more seriously
If I take a break it would make me irresponsible
If i'm elusive I will surely be sought after often
If I need assistance then I must be incapable
I'd be filthy rich and still
It would not come
I would seduce them and still
It would not come
I would drink vodka and still
It would not come
I'd have an orgasm still
It wouldn't come
If I accumulate knowledge
I'll be inpenetrable
If I am aloof no one will know
when they strike a nerve
If I keep my mouth shut the boat
will not have to be rocked
If I am vulnerable I will be
trampled upon
I would go shopping and still
it would not come
I'd leave the country and still
it would not come
I would scream and rebel still
it would not come
I would stuff my face and still
it would not come
I'd be productive and still it would not come
I'd be celebrated still it would not come
I'd be the hero and still it would not come
I'd renunciate and still it would not come к списку » | Не придет | Dear Matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship with someone right
now and I respect
that I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future and you want
to come visit me in California
I would be open to spending time with you and finding out how old you were
when you wrote your first song
Dear Jonathan I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys who would lie
to me and think solely about themselves and
you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time I used to say the more
tragic the better the truth is
whenever I think of the early 90's your face comes up with a vengeance like it was
yesterday
Dear Terrance I love you muchly you've been nothing but open hearted and
emotionally available and supportive
and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in and pushing
you away I remember
how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you for the
first time you were the best platform from
which to jump beyond myself what was wrong with me
Dear Marcus you rocked my world you had a charismatic way about you with the
women and you got me
seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away with kicking
my own ass but I could never really feel
relaxed and looked out for around you though and that stopped us from going
any further than we did
and it's kinda too bad becasue we could've had much more fun
Dear Lou we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some time and
I understand that as I do you
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could we were
together during a very tumultuous time
in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about you about your
career about your whereabouts к списку » | НеотправленноеДорогой Мэтью!
Ты очень нравился мне
Я осознаю, что у тебя сейчас есть отношения с кем-нибудь
И я уважаю твой выбор
Я хочу, чтобы ты знал - если когда-нибудь в будущем ты будешь один, и если захочешь - приезжай навестить меня в Калифорнию
Я буду открыта для того, чтобы провести время с тобой и, наконец, выяснить, сколько лет тебе было, когда ты написал свою первую песню. Дорогой Джонатан!
Ты нравился мне слишком сильно
Меня часто привлекало к парням, которые обманывали меня и думали только о себе
Ты был таким саморазрушительным - как раз в моем вкусе на то время
Я обычно говорила: "Чем трагичнее, тем лучше"
По правде говоря, когда я думаю о начале 90-х, твое лицо вспоминается постоянно, как будто это было вчера Дорогой Терренс!
Я тебя очень-очень любила!
Ты был никем иным, как человеком с открытым сердцем, эмоционально-доступным и в твоем лице всегда можно было найти поддержку, и ты способствовал моему росту и всегда был там для меня
Я продолжала то притягивать, то отталкивать тебя
Я помню, как прекрасно было заснуть у тебя на диванчике и впервые рыдать прямо перед тобой
Ты был лучшим трамплином, чтобы прыгнуть выше себя, что было неправильной идеей (??) Дорогой Маркус!
Ты потряс мой мир
У тебя был очень харизматичный способ преподнесения себя женщинам
И, благодаря тебе, я стала серьезно задумываться о получении духовных знаний
И ты никогда не позволил бы мне отойти от тебя и набить свои собственные шишки, но, по-правде, с тобой я никогда не могла расслабиться и отвлекалась от твоих рассказов
И это стало препятствием для того, чтобы продвинуться дальше, чем получилось тогда
И, собственно говоря, это очень плохо, потому что мы были способны на гораздо большее Дорогой Лу!
Мы многому научились
Я понимаю, что мы не сможем общаться какое-то время
И я понимаю, что так, как я к тебе относилась...
Большая дистанция была самой трудной проблемой
И мы старались, как могли
Мы были вместе в очень сумбурное время в нашей жизни
И я всегда поддержу тебя, и мне будет интересно, что у тебя происходит - твоя карьера, где ты проводишь время *** а вот еще куплеты из демо-версии *** Дорогой Терренс!
Ты был приключением
Кроме того, что ты был старше меня на пару десятков лет, ты писал самые поэтичные любовные письма, и они до сих пор у меня
Ты несколько раз женился и разводился, потому что любил, когда они молоды и наивны, так, чтобы у тебя была власть и драматичность, чтобы внушать ужас
Интересно, что об этом думает твоя жена? Дорогой Тэйлор!
Я часто скучала по тебе
Одно время я была настолько вне себя, что даже не могла произносить твое имя
Меня убило наповал известие о том, что ты вообще не ценил время, что мы были вместе
Я с самого начала знала, что у нас разные представления в понятиях умеренности и мы не могли оставаться вместе всю жизнь, но пока это длилось, было весело | you from new york you are so relevant
you reduce me to cosmic tears
luminous more so than most anyone
unapologetically alive knot in my stomach
and lump in my throat
I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance
so pure such an expression
supposed former infatuation junkie
I sink three pointers and you wax poetically
I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance
so pure such an expression
let's grease the wheel over tea
let's discuss things in confidence
let's be outspoken let's be ridiculous
let's solve the world's problems
I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance
so pure such an expression к списку » | Так чисто | dear dar(lin') your mom (my friend) left a message on my machine she was frantic
saying you were talking crazy that you wanted to do away with yourself
I guess she thought i'd be a perfect resort because we've had this inexplicable
connection since our youth and
yes they're in shock they are panicked you and your chronic them and their
drama
you this embarrassment us in the middle of this delusion
if we were our bodies
if we were our futures
if we were our defenses i'd be joining you
if we were our culture
if we were our leaders
if we were our denials i'd be joining you
I remember vividly a day years ago we were camping you knew more than you
thought you should know
you said "I don't want ever to be brainwashed" and you were mindboggling you
were intense
you were uncomfortable in your own skin you were thirsty but mostly you were
beautiful
if we were our nametags
if we were our rejections
if we were our outcomes i'd be joining you
if we were our indignities
if we were our successes
if we were our emotions i'd be joining you
you and I we're like 4 year olds we want to know why and how come about
everything
we want to reveal ourselves at will and speak our minds and never talk small and
be intuitive
and question mightily and find god my tortured beacon
we need to find like-minded companions
if we were their condemnations
if we were their projections
if we were our paranoias i'd be joining you
if we were our incomes
if we were our obsession
if we were our afflictions i'd be joining you
we need reflection we need a really good memory feel free to call me a little more
often к списку » | Присоединяюсь к тебе
Дорогая! Твоя мама (она мой друг) оставила сообщение у меня на автоответчике. Она была в панике, сказала, что ты сходишь с ума и хочешь покончить с собой.
Я полагаю, она решила, что лучше всего обратиться ко мне, потому что у нас существует с детства эта необъяснимая связь. Да, они все в шоке, они в панике – ты и твое хроническое состояние, они и их драма, ты, эта преграда, мы все вовлечены в эту иллюзию
Если бы мы являлись нашими телами
Если бы мы были нашим будущим
Если бы мы были нашими щитами, я бы присоединилась к тебе
Если бы мы были нашей культурой
Если бы мы были нашими руководителями
Если бы мы были нашими отрицаниями, я бы присоединилась
Прошли годы, я ярко помню тот день, мы были в кемпинге… ты узнала больше, чем ты думала, что тебе следовало знать. Ты сказала: «Никогда в жизни не хочу, чтобы мне промывали мозги» и ты была ошеломляющей, ты была глубоко эмоциональной, тебе было некомфортно в собственном теле, ты мучалась от жажды, но более всего ты была прекрасной
Если бы мы являлись нашими ярлыками
Если бы мы были нашими отторжениями
Если бы мы были нашими результатами, я бы присоеденинилась к тебе
Если бы мы были нашими презрениями
Если бы мы были нашими успехами
Если бы мы были нашими эмоциями, я бы присоединилась
Ты и я. Мы, как четырехлетние дети – мы хотим раскрываться по собственной воле и общаться на уровне мыслей и никогда не говорить меньше, чем хочется и быть интуитивными и могущественно вопрошать и найти бога.. моя измученная путеводная звезда… мы должны находить спутников которые думают также, как мы
Если бы мы были нашими порицаниями
Если бы мы были нашими проекциями
Если бы мы были нашими паранойями, я бы присоединилась
Если бы мы были нашими доходами
Если бы мы были нашей одержимостью
Если бы мы были нашей скорбью, я бы присоединилась
Нам нужна рефлексия , нам нужна по-настоящему хорошая память… Просто звони мне немного чаще |
you are the original template
you are the original exemplary
how seen were actually?
how revered were you (honestly) at the time?
why pleased with you low maintenance?
you loved us more than we could've loved you back
where was you ally your partner in feminine crime?
oh mother who's your buddy?
oh mother who's got your back?
the heart of the house
the heart of the house
all hail the goddess!
you were "good ol'"
you were "count on 'er 'til four am"
you saw me run from the house
in the snow melodramatically
oh mother who's your sister?
oh mother who's your friend?
the heart of the house
the heart of that house
all hail the goddess!
we left the men and we went for a walk in the gatineaus
and talked like women to women would
womyn to womyn would "where did you get that from?
must've been your father your dad"
I got it from you I got it from you
do you see yourself in my gipsy garage sale ways?
in my fits of laughter?
in my tinkerbell tendencies?
in my lack of colour coordination? к списку » | Сердце дома |
I wouldn't have compromised so much
so much of myself for fear of
having you hating me
I would've sung so loudly
it would've cracked myself!
I became self-conscious
of anything exuberant
I wouldn't have sold myself short
I wouldn't have kept my eyes
glued to the ground
if I had've known my invisibility
would not make a difference
I would've run around screaming proudly
at the top of my voice
I wouldn't have said it was in fact luck
i'm talking idealism here
I would not have been so self deprecating
I wouldn't have cowered
for fear of having my eyes scratched out!
I wouldn't have cut my comfort off
I wouldn't have feigned needlessness
I would not have discredited
every one of their compliments
it was your approval I wanted your congratulations
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